perpective

i know i know. 2 posts in..2 days? don't worry it won't last lol. Just had to share my thots a bit.

As you prob know, i'm in med school. Only those in med school can really know how much of a sacrifice it really is - you sacrifice a lot of your life, youth, friendships etc to becoming a doctor. But thats not the point of it.

Usually, the process is college (4 yrs, you pay), then med school (4-5 yrs, you pay), then residency (3-7 yrs, paid minimum wage), the fellowship (2-5 yrs, a lil over minimum wage), then sub-specialty (2-3 yrs, over minimum wage). Of course it varies with what you want to go into. And lets hope you fit family/marriage/life outside of medicine somehow in there.

He was idk in his 30's or so. It was the last year of his fellowship. After that, he was DONE. No more schooling for him. He was gonna start making decent money. He was prob married with kids. Very nice guy, unassuming.

Died in a car crash this weekend.

My heart broke. I couldn't think. What a...tragedy. All that sacrifice...gone like that?

Idk deets - but they are not important. I still can't wrap my head around it.

Really? The very final year of his education? The peak of his journey. What going to happy to his family? Wife, kids etc? Why?

I promised myself today that i'm never gonna drive like a madman anymore. And no, I dont drive crazy - i'd like to think that i'm actually pretty good. But damn - this life. So fragile. So short. Here one day, gone the next.

This made me think...hopefully not just for today, but this week...and the next and the next...and hopefully I can actually make some life modifications.

What is really important in this life? Is it the pursuit of fame? Recognition? Money? What is it that you chase after so hard - that you put everything and everyone else in the back burner? Is it really worth it?
(and no, i'm not taking about him - this is more of a personal thing now..)

Take a moment - hell, take THIS moment (the only one you're guaranteed) to tell someone that you love them. Just do it. Yes, its cheesy or wtv. Still do it. Cos in the end, love is all that matter. Loving and being loved.

Fighting, quarrels, bickering, jealousy...what a waste of our lives, our resources, our energies. What good can you do tomorrow? Today? Who can you call and cheer up? Its the little things...it may be just a simple 'how are you/tell me about your day'...or sending a small package to someone unexpectedly..or just being a listening ear instead of talking and talking...or reconciling with someone else even though they are wrong (eating your pride and being the lesser...or bigger person)...saying I love you...or just taking time from your hectic and busy schedule for yourself. To enjoy life.

What a privilege we take for granted.

Since being in the hospital, my heart is broken every single time. People are suffering...and what do we complain about? Like Ecclesiastes...the useless things...the latest hairdo, albums, etc etc. And yes, I am 100% guilty.

There is more to life. Take a second out of your day and just...do nothing. Appreciate God that you're alive today. It is NOTHING of your doing. And take time to ask...God, what is my purpose for being alive? What is my purpose...for today?

Ok - was about to get on the podium and start preaching there for a sec lol but I thought i'd share.

Sorry it is quite long - just kept on typing. And as usual, forgive any typos etc.

One final thing:

I dare you to do something today...or tomorrow that you haven't done. Something...different. Doesnt have to be exotic or out of this world...just something...simply different. Make a difference in someone's life.