Im not one to complain

or put my biz on the web - but i've just got to say..

I'm currently living one of the lowest points in my life now. At least for the past couple weeks.

1. I've decided that I can never ever trust anyone ever again in my life. I was one of those that believed that yes - there is always one person - that one person you could trust. Well, never again. Been burned by someone that i fully 100% trust and didnt think was capable of doing certain things. Just goes to show you - when it comes to people, no matter how nice/trustworthy they look, you just never know.
The scary thing is that I think ive been scarred. I fear that this mindset will affect my future relationships with people. Not a good outlook.

2. One of my really really good friends is so close to denying her faith - due to some semi-valid reason why i'm too tired to go into here. And there is absolutely nothing I can do about her. Except pray I guess. And even that, sometimes I tire.

3. I'm realizing that medicine isn't really all that I'd thought it would be. Realizing how much I actually hate writing notes. Love patients but sometimes I just want a break. 9-5 is near impossible in today's world. Patients can be soo stressful. You always have to watch what you say/how you say what you say because of money hungry @#$#!!!. I really wish I was one of them old time docs that just practiced med straight up without worry about being PC or about this or that. My how things have changed. For the worse.

4. Nigeria. I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired of that country. What the hell is wrong with us.

OK, blog post didnt make much sense. I'm in a bit of a mood, and have been in quite the mood for the past couple weeks. Really surprised me how much I can fake being ok... i've never had to do that, and I was surprised that I could do it with so much ease. I hate myself for that.

Happy new year ya'll.

edit: if you're one of those guys that cheats on your girl - you should know that you are a piece of scum. And if you're one of those girls that does the same thing - you too are a piece of scum. And you deserve nothing better than someone just like you.

gosh, i sound so angry. i know i am.